Who do I want to be vs. who I am?

When faced with this question, my initial reaction is to pause and think. Should there be two answers? Should the answer be the same for both? Is there a right or wrong response? Over the past couple of weeks I’ve truly taken a deep-dive into the unknown. My stable job has become stable-less, my once known future became less thought out, and my panic started to creep in. Have you found yourself just coasting by, going through the emotions day in and day out, and then all of sudden STOP? I find that this happens two ways. We either make the decision to think about changing or we are forced to. Changing jobs, changing bad habits, changing lifestyles, etc.  We “change” because we want a different result. We want something that we maybe once had and lost. We strive to be better because we know we can.

So who do I want to be? I want to be healthier, not only physically but mentally. I want to write and read more. Spend less time watching tv. Be more focused. As Mallory Ervin would said “live fully”. I want to live a positive life. And that’s not to say I’m currently living a negative one! But I feel myself wanting these things. And if I want to do these things, I need to DO THEM. Wanting and doing are two different things. We can brainstorm whatever the hell we want, but until you put the plan and research into action, then you’re not doing. You’re just wanting.

I encourage you all to start doing the things you want and desire. You want to be a morning person? Get up earlier. You want to run a half marathon? Walk that mile first. Be someone who knows what they want and goes for it. Be the person you want. Because that becomes the person you are

 

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